It's probably bad that i'm trying my hand at writing a song about a coworker >_>. but it's going to be not recognisable who she is from the lyrics.
@kdfrawg I know right. I always wondered about the other driver who hit that car, how he/she/they must be feeling
@kdfrawg i'll probably get over part of it i think if/when i hook up with someone who neither gives a shit about the trans stuff nor fetishises it. but getting the confidence to get to that point is hard. also because i'm 'emotionally impotent' (my words) at the moment and just struggle to have the energy to even find other people attractive full stop.
@kdfrawg when i 'was a gay woman' meeting people was just as hard, plus i was younger. you were always worried/frightened/frustrated/annoyed that whoever you were into might be straight or closeted or whatever. somehow back then i didn't do too badly after awhile. but that was after trying to figure out all these really subtle body language things that i fully didn't understand at all. i get what people are trying to communicate now, but now i just get irritated that no-one actually makes a move and that they expect me to. i mean i was annoyed back when i was being 'female' too, and stopped making an effort because it was tiring. now it's tiring AND scary.
We had a similar weird case (that i presented recently) where this guy was stopped on the side of the road, possibly actually in the lane rather than the shoulder, and got rearended, had these injuries, eventually died, but there were some unanswered questions. most probably the patient/the guy in the stopped vehicle had pulled over due to a severe sudden medical illness and coincidentally got hit by another car because he'd stopped unexpectedly. https://thebolditalic.com/the-day-i-killed-someone-c7fe4bb20190
@kdfrawg O_o. that's so annoying. we usually retest after a month or two after starting high doses (that said, that's a pretty safe dose and it will take time for your levels to get back to normal). insurance companies are so inflexible
@kdfrawg like… now that I 'pass' i don't have any major fear of being assaulted or murdered above and beyond what any guy faces, but the look of disgust that i've had when i initially came out that was on… maybe 1/20 people's faces, isn't really something i want to have to deal with if i don't have to.
@kdfrawg it doesn't help that lots of trans people get murdered essentially for hitting on someone or sleeping with someone or the idea that they might do one of those things. mostly trans women, but then there's of course the only trans guy representation in a mainstream movie to my knowledge which is 'boys don't cry' (which i really dont' want to watch)