@kdfrawg when i 'was a gay woman' meeting people was just as hard, plus i was younger. you were always worried/frightened/frustrated/annoyed that whoever you were into might be straight or closeted or whatever. somehow back then i didn't do too badly after awhile. but that was after trying to figure out all these really subtle body language things that i fully didn't understand at all. i get what people are trying to communicate now, but now i just get irritated that no-one actually makes a move and that they expect me to. i mean i was annoyed back when i was being 'female' too, and stopped making an effort because it was tiring. now it's tiring AND scary.