@matigo haha same with my self esteem. I'm feeling happier now that my outside looks closer to how I feel on the inside but more importantly my body feels "right". Being fat and having issues exercising due to pain, and my fear of how partners might feel about my manboobs and pink bits is part of it but not all of it. Much of it is my fears of the kind of person I am deep down and what my personality is like in a relationship